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Thu, 28 Dec 2006 19:24:25 GMT

Well christmas was pretty good.
Got some sweet gifts and had a sick dinner.
Got poorly from boxing day onwards though
pretty shit, this is the first day I've been out of bed since Boxing Day.
Missed the two days off work I had to go out and get festively pissed up due to been ill.. wank!
Also had a scare thinking my mate Dez was dead, aparantly hes ok.

This years not been all that great but its not been shit either.
Just seems to have passed along with nothing extremely major happening.
Theres been some good times... Prague etc.
Theres been some bad times... ridiculous ammount of deaths.
Hopefully from the experiences this year I'll learn from them and make 2007 a good year.
The wierd thing about this year has been like finding myself and stuff... Like December 05 to December 06 things have fell apart and pieced back together again.
so yeah... heres to 07.

maflapapaj

Mon, 15 May 2006 20:57:04 GMT

God I hate my job, my boss is such a cunt... I've not been since Wednesday. All she every does is give me shit, and then even gives me shit when i'm right, then when I'm right she just ignores that fact and picks another fault. Shes a sad old women who takes her job way too seriously. My old team got split up and although my last boss was a bitch, she was a bitch with everyone, this one i've had the last couple of months has a team consisting of people shes known for years, and then me and tom, so its just us two that get the shit, and its normally me more than anyone. I wanna ask to move teams but last time she just said i wouldnt be able to, every other day I just wanna kick her in her stupid head. plus she looks like this.

Don't you fucking hate censorship, it fucking winds me up so bad. All these bent christians going mad about The Da Vinci Code movie. There useless, if they read the book right they would realise that the catholic church are tricked and aren't actually the fucking bad guys, they were never even made out to be cunts that much. All the stuff about burning Pagans and stuff is true, so I don't know why there getting so pissed off. Censorship is for fucking wankers.

What a fuckin weekend!

Sun, 14 May 2006 16:26:47 GMT

This weekend has been absolutely amazing, one of the best weekends I've had for ages! Started off on Friday with Club Kids 3, the third and final of the garage raves. Shit went pretty mad, kids droppin e's n what not. Everything was amazing, then I goes outside to have a walk and Taylors stood at side of street waiting for his dad and tells me that this van about 10 yards down the road is an undercover police van, which it was. So kids are sticking bags of ecstacy between their arsecrack and fuckin everyones going even more mad crazy than when the acid house was on two minutes ago. I sat down for about 5 minutes then thought fuck this I ain't getting caught under the influence, it might be the pussy thing to do but I'm outta here... Snook past window and grabbed me coat and set of with Sam outta there. Bumped into Dean and headed down to Civic, stayed there till about 2:30, then back to deans to top the bender off in style. Got back to sams about 5:15.

Saturday

Woke up about 9 to Lez walking into Sams room ,he was still fucked, fell back to sleep and eventually we all woke up and went for breakfest about 12:15, Watched some of the FA Cup final and then headed to Donny to catch the last few mins of extra time and the penalties. Went to a few bars and had something to eat. Jumped in a taxi and went to the dome to see Richard Ashcroft, one of the best gigs I've ever been to, if not the best! You could tell he was loving it and his stage pressence was captivating. Finished with Bittersweet Symphony and I was in euphoria, it was fuckin perfect! So thats 4 out of my 6 favourite bands seen now, just got Joy Division/New Order and Elliot Smith, just sucks I can't actually see Mr. Smith. Then went back to Mexborough to have a steady few in the ferry. Then bed, woke up today and I'll probably go out for a drink tonight, i wouldnt have minded riding but weathers wank!

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 23:31:31 GMT

I'm currently bidding for that fine piece of clothing... c'mon!

Animal Premier

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 13:41:50 GMT

Got to Sheff, went to the Blind centre.
There was a couple of other BMX vids on. I can't remember much from them, Ben Lewis' section was fuckin awesome, some kid did the biggest Icepick I've ever seen, pretty good.
By the time Animal came on everyone was fucked. The video was ace, I didn't see it well because everyone kept fuckin about but what I saw was amazing... Double Peg rail to Whip!
After the prem, everyone went mental the building had glass all over, every toilet blocked n the lot. Everyone set off to this rave in a warehouse, and then someone chucked a fuckin bottle at a police car, so 100 BMXers or wateva end up getting their ale took off em. Rave seems like a bad idea, so everyone headed upto Craperation. I laughed so hard there, Pughy had the sickest dance moves, was absolutely mint. Flowers nicked my white snuff, which i was annoyed about. We then walked up Brammall Lane to Pughys house but nobody would let us in so we stumbled about until about 6:00 and got in some Halls were pughys mate lived and kipped in his room, woke up this morning feeling worse for wear and got back home... All in all, one of the funniest nights ever!

2005-2006

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 16:25:47 GMT

Well 2005 was ok I guess... There was Battle Royale, probably the best weekend of the year. Lambrini, that was ok too. All the gigs n stuff I've been to and played at. The Red Chord at Manchester was probably my favourite, with Converge at Leeds in at close second, Owen was fucking brilliant at Sheffield too. There was 'nuff good stuff, then again there was the rubbish stuff too... Kicked out of a band, losing one of my best mates, kicked outta college n all that shite. I met a lot of cool people over the last year or so and its generally been a blast.
I guess these pictures sum up 2005 for me.

So whats 2006 hold then?
more partys, more drink, more BMX, Lamjam 06, BR 3, more music, less attention, NEW FUCKIN YORK, Less bitches cos theres seems to be a right lack of at the moment, good times I hope.

SOME WORK FROM COLLEGE

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 22:43:30 GMT

These are some pieces of art I did for 'man and beast' I don't really know how I put them into this catagory, I wrote some bull shit and then did these paintings, obviously in a simillar style to Derek Hess, but I didn't use the same materials. I looked in a book called 'Anatomy' and sketched some photos of blokes in the niff... No I didn't get off on it or owt but its good to use stuff like that to change into stuff like these. I'm pretty happy with the outcome.. Feebback?

On another note its my 18th on Saturday so if anyone fancies a drink in Sheffield drop me a holla.

YEAH RIGHT SO....

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 23:52:42 GMT

ITS FINISHED ITS FINISHED ITS FINISHED!!!
STOKE HERE I FUCKIN COME!

So this weekend I'll probably end up going there, even if I go on my own, I don't care.
Tomorrow I'm gonna go meet Jordan and Peter Andre, I wanna ask him if he really is 78% plastic.

MAVERICK?! DID YOUR MOTHER NOT LIKE YOU OR SOMETHING?

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 00:18:35 GMT

So last night the world series kicked off... ok so no Red Sox or Dodgers but hmmm... Be ret.
I went round to pourks with a load of beers and a few sweets(thats an alcopop, they go down real nice in between a beer!) and then a shit load of popcorn.

So before WS05 even starts we watch Robbie Williams Live, and the greatest movie ever... Topgun! Then after that we sat down for the game.
By now I'd done with my tinnies except like one so I moved onto popcorn... This was THE BIGGEST mistake ever!

I woke up Sunday morning and vomited popcorn out about 6 times whilst at pourks and then at mine too. It was horrible it was dry and caught on my throat as it came back up. I'm never eating popcorn again!!!!!

Also please go here... And try make a difference, this man doesn't deserve this.

Stanley 'Tookie' Williams

Today I wrote a letter to Arnold Schwarzenegger... The message was about Stan Williams and the subject title was 'BILLY NOOOOOOOOOO!!!! DONT KILL TOOKIE!' It amused me anyway.

NEW SONG UP

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 12:32:17 GMT

We have a new song up on our myspace.
Go listen!!!

CLICK HERE!!!

I start work today.

:(

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 23:08:11 GMT

R.I.P COLIN WINKELMAN

SIPPIN ON 40Z N JUS CHILLIN

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 18:14:06 GMT

I've done fuck all the last few days.
Rode my bike.
Listened to tales about London after me Dad got back.
Practiced and realised it was too hot.
Slept a lot.
I pulled on Tuesday... Then just as I was gunna get this hoe's mobile number Pulf grabbed me and dragged me onto the dancefloor at this club... Then I couldn't find her after that... I was gutted!
Oh well.. Not the end of the world innit.
Gunna go meet the nigguhs in Rotherham now and have some beers since its Taylors Birthday.

BROKEN RIBS MAYBE?!

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 00:27:55 GMT

Last night we played the Corp.
It was pretty good!
We played alright, could have been better but oh well!
BMTH weren't that amazing to be honest, I think it was because there organisation was a bit of a shambles last night, but oh well, everyone has a bad show sometimes.
100 Demons were fantastic and there bassist was cool as fuck!
Then we went to the club and it was packed with people who'd been to the gig.
I met some cool new people and saw some friends that I haven't seen for a while.
All in all a great night!

Today I got up took the dog out and then went back to bed.
I actually woke up at 12:00 and then sat and wrote some music on guitar and drums until about 5:00.
Then I went out riding, and I hurt myself pretty bad... I bent my bars as I landed something and the bars went straight into my ribs, I'm having trouble breathing and Its a bit painful... I think I'm gonna go see the doctor tomorrow and make sure I've not broken owt. Then if the weathers good I'll play out, if not I'll write some more music

RANTING AND RAVING.

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 18:37:34 GMT

Ok, so a lot of people have read all that shite I've posted on Myspace about people fucking me off and stuff recently. Well Its a Sunday, I've had too much Pro-Plus and I think I'm gonna shit my pants but heres some more.

Right... I'm gonna go through it all, from start to finish in one journal entry. Firstly, I hate this whole holier than thou attitude that seems to have appeared in this whole music scene, people think they are a better person than someone else for ridiculous reasons such as their haircut is better or their pants are tighter or they've heard 'A Broken Heart On A Murderous Killing Spree During The Winter Sunset' or whatever all the generic underground bands everyone is butt fucking are called... Don't get me wrong, they are good bands, but why like em all... THEY ALL SOUND THE FUCKING SAME!!! Nobody is better than anyone and this whole elitism thats popped up is pathetic, but whats even more amusing is more elitism comes as more kids get into it, but its the kids getting into it who are cunts! I don't get it.

Since when has listening to music, wearing clothes, moshing, or whatever else everyone does been a fucking competition? I can't get my head around it, I go to gigs and I don't feel a positive attitude, I feel a tense environment where everybody is been judged by one another and if you don't say the right words or if you don't have the right band t-shirts on or shoes or wateva. Its pathetic, if everyone dresses the same it looks fucking stupid and it seems to take the fun out of when everything, being unique is something I think you should be proud of and once I actually thought this small scene was pretty unique, but its not really is it?

Then theres this stupid things that people go through were they are convinced they are Zombies, Ninja's, Pirates, Robots, Dinosaurs etc etc. I think if a shrink met some of the people who say this bollocks they'd strap a straight jacket on them and lock em in a padded room. Its pretty gay, and its not very cool really. Send More Paramedics are fun, but I think they know there not really zombies haha. Then people seem to have started bummin Camo and Army soldiers... Since when has war been cool?!

This is one that really gets on my nerves because it makes me feel a fucking idiot myself. Everyone is a fucking Film Maker/Movie Buff or a Photographer. Yet most of the people that say this have no fucking clue... They've got some cheap digital camera, probably picked up at Dixons for about £250 and worked out how to make the shutterspeed low and took a bunch of band pictures or pictures of themselves. Then I say I'm into Photography and I can get lumped into this catagory, yet I actually have a fucking clue and have been taking photos for a helluva long time. Same with the movie maker bollocks... I bet not a single one of them has ever made a film of any sort and edited it in his entire life and doesn't know fuck all about shots, montage and all that other bollocks that is involved with film making.

I hate how the music and the bands has come down to how people look and stuff now too... For example, kids seem to favour bands not just for music, but for the image as well. Like theres some real good bands out there but because they don't conform to the conventional dress of the tight ball huggers and a tight t-shirt then they don't get anywere.

The new cool thing is to say how you hate the scene, but its pathetic that even thats became fashionable... Oh well, fuck everyone, I'm saying what I want because it winds me up!

Its disgusting that its all come down to this...

today was good.

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 20:34:38 GMT

Today I got up at about 10.
I went home from Jamies last night because I was in a foul mood so I missed out on all the tomfoolry.
I went running and decided I couldnt be arsed with lifting any weights today.
So I sat on me arse after having a bath then set off at two to meet Sarah.
I got meself some dollar by trading in some PS2 games... THATS HOW SKINT I AM!
Then we went to TGI Fridays and got some chips and then some Oreo milkshake... I'd heard all about this stuff and just had to try it.
They were pretty nice.
Then we went to the pictures and watched this film called Millions.
I was a bit reluctant to see it cause it has the guy from the Yellow Pages adverts in it.
But it was pretty good... Really trippy film with some great cinematics... Its directed by the same guy who did Trainspotting and The Beach, so you can see where I'm coming from.
Then we headed back home, she went her way and I went mine.
And I'm already looking forward to been out with her again so as she is pretty amazing.

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 18:03:26 GMT

Yesterday we fucked practice off cos its too hot...
We made some merch with our own hands.

BUY BAGS OFF US AT SHOWS FOR 5QUID... YOU GET SOME BADGES AND PATCHES TOO!!!

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 12:43:30 GMT

Yesterday. We played Manchester.
We got stuck there.
It was funny.
Pictures and more to come!

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 14:30:27 GMT

Heres another amusing picture.

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 03:57:11 GMT

Friends Only from now on... Get adding you fucktards.

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 20:48:26 GMT

On Friday me and Vegan went to the Corp for a couple of hours.
It was fun, the DJ played whatever we asked for... So it was metal mainly.
Vegan proceeded to tell this certain girrly that I told him I paid her a 5er so she'd suck me off.
Tut.
Slept at Pourks that night.
On Saturday I went to Jamies and ate Peanut Buttercups whilst watching cheesy pornos.
Then me, Jamie, Pourk, Shane and Vegan all came to mine and we slept over.
Well Vegan didn't he walked home in the middle of the night, whilst it was very very cold.
We drank some wine, watched some films and played some video games... Nothing sparkling, but it was fun.

Oh yeah.... Jamie got a new tattoo, its got cling film round it so it doesn't go funny, but check this out... its pretty rad!

Today I took Pourk to Sheffield so he could buy a nice coat. Then we ended up on a train full of Gypsies... If I said I was shitting my pants... Well that would be a fucking understatement.

Then I came home... Tomorrow will be funny, all those romantics n that, its just any other day, except people are a little bit more broke cause they bought some crappy card and some present... Valentines Day is dogger

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 11:41:24 GMT

Last night I went to this college party.
It proper blew!
You ever had that feeling were you're totally alienated from everyone else, I kept thinking that all night long.
That feeling were you think nobody understands you... I hate it.
I was gonna see The Murder Of Rosa Luxemburg tonight at the Corp but it got cancelled.
ALONG WITH OUR HONDO MACLEAN SHOW! TUT TUT TUT
The shows have both been postponed until further notice, which sucks a fat one.
So I'm gonna just go to Sheff riding or go to the Corp and be bored, should be fun haha.
No more college for a week.
No more attendance monitoring, meaning I can stay in bed on days when I feel too fucked, to even attempt college.

IF ANYONE KNOWS ANY SHOWS WE CAN PLAY IN MARCH COULD YOU PLEASE TELL ME... PRETTY PLEASE! XXX

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 21:27:54 GMT

msn is been a bograt.
I watched Romeo And Julliet today... You know that new one with DiCaprio and Claire Danes.
Its really good, I thought it was dogger the last time i watched it, but i enjoyed it today!

Oh I feel so lonely so lonely... Valentines Day just around the corner, I think I'd rather eat my own shit that leave the house that day.

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 09:52:32 GMT

So I've done a fair bit since last sunday.
Practice as per usual.
Went to see Death From Above 1979 on Thursday, they were great and so were the support... There was one band called Controller Controller and they were fucking awesome, like Hot Hot Heat with a female singer or something.
Recording with The DF has started. So our CD will be out soon. Got a few shows for march so far, februarys gonna be a no-gig month cause everyone keeps going on holiday, except me! CUNTS!

Slept at Big P's on Friday and caused some mischief... Oh how I love this picture!!!

Can't wait until next week... So much fun to be had! Stay in bed, go to York, Go riding, Recording my Drum tracks, oh yay!

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 10:18:58 GMT

Yeah, So I have next to nothing to do these days.
I went to see Fightstar(that guy from Busted) last friday... Guestlist innit!
They weren't actually terrible, I've seen worser things in my time.
Practiced on Saturday.
Slept at Pourks on Saturday Neet.
Went to Sheffield On Sunday to watch the Horizons and get some photos for my new project.

I decided I'm going to try and cover lots of different aspects of city life. things such as: the upper-class(yuppie) lifestyle, the struggle in cities (the homeless etc), the architecture, the suburbs, different ethnic groups, different people (from kids to adults).

All of the shots will be black and white, because I think it would give the photos much more meaning and depth, don't ask me why... It just seems a good idea!

I'm going to spend a lot of time on this and hopefully come out with a really awesome set of photos. I'm planning on using shots from today to mid/late summer.

Wish me luck people!!!!!